On the road to recovery

Well the proceedure today was WAY WAY worse than the invasive surgery. I woke up in extreme pain. After morphine and a few other drugs I felt better. I also have a nerve block in my leg. For the first time in2 months my leg is straight. but it will pop up if taken our of the splint. It is a weird feel to wiggle your toes or touch your leg and not be able to feel it. They said to expect a lot of pain tonight so make sure I take the pain killers. I am ready to be completely healed.

I talked to my pricipal and teacher assistance today and they said that special olympics was good. I am glad that it was. God provided good weather and fun for the kids.

The Adventure Continues.....

Well so far I've made no progress after 3 weeks of PT. I've actually lost even more of my range of motion. I went to the doctor to see what's up. Because my knee was in the lock position for so long it decided it wanted to stay there. What fun! It's been 2 months since the accident. I now have to go back to surgery for a technique call Knee Manipulation. Here they will put me under and then manipulate my knee to make it bend and straighten. In other words they are going to force it to do something it refuses to do. This procedure will be more painful than the orginal surgery. I was told I will hurt like hell for 2 weeks and will under INTENSIVE physical therapy as if what I was already doing wasn't intensive enough. The last surgery I was at such peace about the whole thing, not so with this one. I have had lots of prayer and really appreciate all who have helped me, either by praying, waiting on me, taking me places, or lending a shoulder to cry on. Tomorrow is special olympics, and in my 12 years of teaching it will be the first one I've ever missed. I am totally bummed about that. I look forward to encouraging my kids on the one day that is set aside just for them to shine. It is always fun. I love my students and hate that I will miss it. I will be glad to get back to normal tough so that I will be able to give them 100% that they deserve. I have only been back for 1 week of full time days to turn around and miss a few more. I have left them in great hands and will pray that tomorrow will be a glorious day for them. Going to go now and eat my last bite of food before midnight.

PAIN

Well today Physical Therapy took on a whole new meaning. I know call it pain and tourcher or physical tourcher. My therapist, decided that my leg and hip needed a massage because my leg was more bent than it was the last session. He asked me what was up and I said "you tell me , your the therapist".. Ah! massage Right, OH NO, that was probally the most painful thing I have experienced. But worth it right, yes if it will help my leg get straight. We I thought the worst was over, did a few more strenghtening excersizes and then we were going to stretch it, no so bad the last session, a litttle pain but not much. Well guess again. He is pulling and tugging and then he ask one of the other therapist to come over. I winced and said PLEASE tell me that the 2 of you will not be pulling on my leg at the same time. Well guess what, THEY DID! HE is pulling and tugging and she is poking and pushing my knee downward. What fun that was, I literaly came off of the table and it took my breath away but hopefully it will be one step closer to having my leg back to normal.

On our walk with Christ, we all have our time in the desert. These times are usually accompanied by pain and hard lessons but the one thing we know about the times when we feel like we are so far away from our source of hope, that these times of struggle and pain only draw us closer to our Goal of walking close to God again. So I have to keep positive and believe that I get one step closer to my goal of walking normally again.